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Leave it up to me
I can barely speak
Hold me in your sleep
But you say her name
Begging you to stay
Feel you pull away
Wait another day
For more of the same
Maybe you never loved me
At all
Careful where you stand
You shadow of a man
Gave to you my hand
Was I ever wrong
Lies between your teeth
No apologies
Silver on your sheets
The minute I’m gone
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Oh, I used to be
A fragile ghost of me
Shattered at my feet
At the tiniest fight
And you could never see
The fire that I keep
Raging within me
It’s a beautiful light
So maybe you never loved me
At all
Maybe you never loved anything
At all
Maybe you never loved me at all
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The world is green
And I am disappearing
Underneath the weight of
What we’ve become
And it’s only me
But the voices I am hearing
Tell me I’m not done
Something ‘bout the way
This open road
Stretches out from Nashville
Back to home reminds me
I am more than what
Has happened here
There is only everything after you
There’s a bluer sky
Over the horizon
If I just keep this little heart in drive
And a greater life
If I can keep my eyes on
What is truly mine
Something ‘bout the way
It feels right now
Tells me it’ll all work out somehow
And I’m finding
I am more than what
I’ve come to fear
There is only everything after you
And I know this much is true
It’s a wonder how
We can lose ourselves in something
We believe will always stay the same
But when we turn around
And find we’re left with nothing
We can walk away
Something ‘bout the time
I’ve wasted on
Everything you said, oh, but
You were wrong
What you couldn’t give
You were so withdrawn
Trying to be exactly
What you wanted
All the things that I knew
All along
Add up to the reasons why I’m gone
And are behind me
I will never ever disappear
There is only everything after you
And I know this much is true
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I’ve had enough, isn’t it time?
That all this let up and I could release
And just breathe for a while?
I did a lot of things right
Or so I thought
But I still have to fight
And I’m losing myself in this hell
That you’ve brought
What if we pay for our sins
This side of the ground?
Maybe the joke of it is
We never find out
If it’s ever enough, if the debt is repaid
If all of this pain is the worth of
The hurt that we gave
What if whatever we’ve done
Comes back around to us –
Would you still do the same?
What if you find
Somehow, I’ve changed?
That all of this time in the dark
Was the spark that created this flame?
You have your story and I’ve got mine
Don’t you see that the more we
Make room for these truths
The less we will hide
The less we will lie
The less this will die?
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I’ve had enough, isn’t it time
That all this let up and I could release
And just breathe?
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Low, in the places that you hide
I know how hard you’ve tried
To make it work
And although they’ve stolen
All your pride
Cast your loyalty aside
The beginning of the leaving
Always hurts
So take only what you need
There is more ahead
Than all you leave behind
Take only what you need
There is salvation in the emptiness
You’ll find
Slow, like the changing of the tide
It comes from deep inside
With simple words
And I know you won’t be satisfied
Living life between the lies
That hold you down from
All that you deserve
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You’ve carried enough for now
You’ve made it here alive
And still beautiful somehow
So, when you open up your eyes
And finally decide that you come first
You’ll go, taking one step at a time
And I hope you’ll realize, that
Darling, everything is exactly
What you’re worth
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Can this be called bravery?
Walking away from someone
Who can’t wait for me to leave
But they won’t hold the door?
You wanted to make believe
As if it wasn’t enough
That all you could do was lie to me
Who was it even for?
You never thought of
Asking me to stay
You just shrugged, didn’t look up
And said, “Okay”
Well now, didn’t you just get
Every little thing that you wanted?
Didn’t this all go exactly
As you planned?
You like to say I’m better off
‘Cause it makes you feel
Like a better man
Still, you just can’t leave
But I can
Go on and wait and see
See what you get when you run
From yourself and everything
You could be
If you just loved a little more
Look what I’ve made of me
Who I’ve become is
Who I’ve always been
And lately, I’m feeling like
I’ve been here before
So you can sell yourself as
The martyr that you play
But I know the truth of what I do
Not what you say
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So you keep on running away
So this is bravery
Walking away from somebody
Who never could say to me
I don’t want this anymore
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I said, “I love you”
Even though you said it first
Brought my kiss
Like water to your lips
You were dying there of thirst
I said, “I need you”
Even though you needed me
Gave my breath
It weathered me instead
Who you wanted me to be
These words fall like flowers
From my mouth
Promises like violets
Delicate and low
Never knew just how to figure out
You didn’t want a garden
Your desert heart had hardened
And nothing there could grow
I said, “I’m sorry”
Even though I wasn’t wrong
Sent my tongue
With fire from the sun
Burning virtue with my song
These words fall like flowers
From my mouth
Apologies like roses
Beautiful and slow
Never knew just how to figure out
You didn’t want a garden
Your desert heart had hardened
And nothing there could grow
I said, “I’m leaving”
Even though I would have tried
Took my things
Left behind my rings
As the ground beneath me died
These words fall like flowers
From my mouth
Honesty like lilies
Strength you will never know
All these years ‘til now to figure out
You didn’t want a garden
Your desert heart had hardened
And nothing there could grow
I would know
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Loving you and your heavy heart
Is the hardest thing to do
You try to pull me under
Hide the light, hide the truth
I believed there was something
I was loving for
But every step I take is empty
Lose the battle, lose the war
I am waking from this slumber
Lying underneath your hand
Thinking I was sleeping safely
That who I love is who I am
With your eyes to the horizon
Feigning efforts to decide
You lose sight of my attention
You should run, you should hide
Don’t sleep for thinking
I am not listening
Don’t fight for thinking
I’ll just lay down
Don’t weep for me
As the night is thickening
This life is mine and I will die for it
There’s another side to silence
There’s a different shade of kind
You may thing I’m merely hiding
But I bite my tongue, bide my time
I’ve become what you have made me
Brought forth from your belief
So I learn to come out howling
Show my shadow, show my teeth
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You said I was your forever
You said I would be your home
But you are gone
Well before I leave you
Still alive but not alone
Now I walk this wild, wooded world
With this knowing I will go
That it is always my decision
What I’ll be, what I’ll show
You will never be so lucky
To know exactly who I am
For deep in every woman
Lives a wolf, lives a lamb
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The pink in the twilight sky
Reminds me there is life
After my last breath
In our empty apartment
And the heat of this long July
It finds me making friends
With my own death
Wondering where my heart went
The navy of the midnight sky
Reminds me it is darkest
Before the dawn
Or so I’ve been told
If there is one thing here alone
That binds me, it’s that
I waited so long
To let you go
There will never be
A way to go back
That isn’t only in my head
Right in front of me
Blooming through the cracks
Is a life that isn’t over yet
The gold in the morning sky
Reminds me dreams are
Coming true
And I am all I will ever need
And the light behind my eyes
It blinds me, the only way out
Is through
And this heart is a machine
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This heart is a machine
And I am all I will ever need