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“THIS HEART

IS A MACHINE”

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  • Leave it up to me

    I can barely speak

    Hold me in your sleep

    But you say her name

    Begging you to stay

    Feel you pull away

    Wait another day

    For more of the same

    Maybe you never loved me

    At all

    Careful where you stand

    You shadow of a man

    Gave to you my hand

    Was I ever wrong

    Lies between your teeth

    No apologies

    Silver on your sheets

    The minute I’m gone

    Chorus

    Oh, I used to be

    A fragile ghost of me

    Shattered at my feet

    At the tiniest fight

    And you could never see

    The fire that I keep

    Raging within me

    It’s a beautiful light

    So maybe you never loved me

    At all

    Maybe you never loved anything

    At all

    Maybe you never loved me at all

  • The world is green

    And I am disappearing

    Underneath the weight of

    What we’ve become

    And it’s only me

    But the voices I am hearing

    Tell me I’m not done

    Something ‘bout the way

    This open road

    Stretches out from Nashville

    Back to home reminds me

    I am more than what

    Has happened here

    There is only everything after you

    There’s a bluer sky

    Over the horizon

    If I just keep this little heart in drive

    And a greater life

    If I can keep my eyes on

    What is truly mine

    Something ‘bout the way

    It feels right now

    Tells me it’ll all work out somehow

    And I’m finding

    I am more than what

    I’ve come to fear

    There is only everything after you

    And I know this much is true

    It’s a wonder how

    We can lose ourselves in something

    We believe will always stay the same

    But when we turn around

    And find we’re left with nothing

    We can walk away

    Something ‘bout the time

    I’ve wasted on

    Everything you said, oh, but

    You were wrong

    What you couldn’t give

    You were so withdrawn

    Trying to be exactly

    What you wanted

    All the things that I knew

    All along

    Add up to the reasons why I’m gone

    And are behind me

    I will never ever disappear

    There is only everything after you

    And I know this much is true

  • I’ve had enough, isn’t it time?

    That all this let up and I could release

    And just breathe for a while?

    I did a lot of things right

    Or so I thought

    But I still have to fight

    And I’m losing myself in this hell

    That you’ve brought

    What if we pay for our sins

    This side of the ground?

    Maybe the joke of it is

    We never find out

    If it’s ever enough, if the debt is repaid

    If all of this pain is the worth of

    The hurt that we gave

    What if whatever we’ve done

    Comes back around to us –

    Would you still do the same?

    What if you find

    Somehow, I’ve changed?

    That all of this time in the dark

    Was the spark that created this flame?

    You have your story and I’ve got mine

    Don’t you see that the more we

    Make room for these truths

    The less we will hide

    The less we will lie

    The less this will die?

    Chorus

    I’ve had enough, isn’t it time

    That all this let up and I could release

    And just breathe?

  • Low, in the places that you hide

    I know how hard you’ve tried

    To make it work

    And although they’ve stolen

    All your pride

    Cast your loyalty aside

    The beginning of the leaving

    Always hurts

    So take only what you need

    There is more ahead

    Than all you leave behind

    Take only what you need

    There is salvation in the emptiness

    You’ll find

    Slow, like the changing of the tide

    It comes from deep inside

    With simple words

    And I know you won’t be satisfied

    Living life between the lies

    That hold you down from

    All that you deserve

    Chorus

    You’ve carried enough for now

    You’ve made it here alive

    And still beautiful somehow

    So, when you open up your eyes

    And finally decide that you come first

    You’ll go, taking one step at a time

    And I hope you’ll realize, that

    Darling, everything is exactly

    What you’re worth

    Chorus

  • Can this be called bravery?

    Walking away from someone

    Who can’t wait for me to leave

    But they won’t hold the door?

    You wanted to make believe

    As if it wasn’t enough

    That all you could do was lie to me

    Who was it even for?

    You never thought of

    Asking me to stay

    You just shrugged, didn’t look up

    And said, “Okay”

    Well now, didn’t you just get

    Every little thing that you wanted?

    Didn’t this all go exactly

    As you planned?

    You like to say I’m better off

    ‘Cause it makes you feel

    Like a better man

    Still, you just can’t leave

    But I can

    Go on and wait and see

    See what you get when you run

    From yourself and everything

    You could be

    If you just loved a little more

    Look what I’ve made of me

    Who I’ve become is

    Who I’ve always been

    And lately, I’m feeling like

    I’ve been here before

    So you can sell yourself as

    The martyr that you play

    But I know the truth of what I do

    Not what you say

    Chorus

    So you keep on running away

    So this is bravery

    Walking away from somebody

    Who never could say to me

    I don’t want this anymore

  • I said, “I love you”

    Even though you said it first

    Brought my kiss

    Like water to your lips

    You were dying there of thirst

    I said, “I need you”

    Even though you needed me

    Gave my breath

    It weathered me instead

    Who you wanted me to be

    These words fall like flowers

    From my mouth

    Promises like violets

    Delicate and low

    Never knew just how to figure out

    You didn’t want a garden

    Your desert heart had hardened

    And nothing there could grow

    I said, “I’m sorry”

    Even though I wasn’t wrong

    Sent my tongue

    With fire from the sun

    Burning virtue with my song

    These words fall like flowers

    From my mouth

    Apologies like roses

    Beautiful and slow

    Never knew just how to figure out

    You didn’t want a garden

    Your desert heart had hardened

    And nothing there could grow

    I said, “I’m leaving”

    Even though I would have tried

    Took my things

    Left behind my rings

    As the ground beneath me died

    These words fall like flowers

    From my mouth

    Honesty like lilies

    Strength you will never know

    All these years ‘til now to figure out

    You didn’t want a garden

    Your desert heart had hardened

    And nothing there could grow

    I would know

  • Loving you and your heavy heart

    Is the hardest thing to do

    You try to pull me under

    Hide the light, hide the truth

    I believed there was something

    I was loving for

    But every step I take is empty

    Lose the battle, lose the war

    I am waking from this slumber

    Lying underneath your hand

    Thinking I was sleeping safely

    That who I love is who I am

    With your eyes to the horizon

    Feigning efforts to decide

    You lose sight of my attention

    You should run, you should hide

    Don’t sleep for thinking

    I am not listening

    Don’t fight for thinking

    I’ll just lay down

    Don’t weep for me

    As the night is thickening

    This life is mine and I will die for it

    There’s another side to silence

    There’s a different shade of kind

    You may thing I’m merely hiding

    But I bite my tongue, bide my time

    I’ve become what you have made me

    Brought forth from your belief

    So I learn to come out howling

    Show my shadow, show my teeth

    Chorus

    You said I was your forever

    You said I would be your home

    But you are gone

    Well before I leave you

    Still alive but not alone

    Now I walk this wild, wooded world

    With this knowing I will go

    That it is always my decision

    What I’ll be, what I’ll show

    You will never be so lucky

    To know exactly who I am

    For deep in every woman

    Lives a wolf, lives a lamb

  • The pink in the twilight sky

    Reminds me there is life

    After my last breath

    In our empty apartment

    And the heat of this long July

    It finds me making friends

    With my own death

    Wondering where my heart went

    The navy of the midnight sky

    Reminds me it is darkest

    Before the dawn

    Or so I’ve been told

    If there is one thing here alone

    That binds me, it’s that

    I waited so long

    To let you go

    There will never be

    A way to go back

    That isn’t only in my head

    Right in front of me

    Blooming through the cracks

    Is a life that isn’t over yet

    The gold in the morning sky

    Reminds me dreams are

    Coming true

    And I am all I will ever need

    And the light behind my eyes

    It blinds me, the only way out

    Is through

    And this heart is a machine

    Chorus

    This heart is a machine

    And I am all I will ever need